Comfort

i have this necklace.
this taonga was a gift from my mum for my graduation from university. it is a symbol of lifelong learning, and that we are always on a journey.
we keep moving on.
i am comforted by the fact that this stands for something so important. and at times, sometimes months on end, i will wear it as a symbol of the season i am in. when I wear it now, my son loves to play with it and spin it around in his hands, reminding me that he is on his own one. i am comforted by that.
comfort to me is a lot of things really.
my husband, son and i altogether.
my family around me, accepting me wholeheartedly.
and, so many integral loved ones too. 
bagels with cream cheese and jam.
lying on mum’s couch.
and so many other things too.

but as I look down at what hangs around my neck something stands out to me. 

a promise that gives me comfort during all the highs and lows right now and in the future – whether up in the mountain tops or stumbling through the darkest valleys.
i am not complete.
i am a work in progress.
how I am today is not as far as I get.
 there are many new hinds places and many more valleys.

i am so grateful for that. the fact that i am unfinished, still being molded, not having to resolve. 

this is not the end but that i am complete in Him.

thank goodness!

What gives you comfort?

Comfort

i have this necklace.
this taonga was a gift from my mum for my graduation from university. it is a symbol of lifelong learning, and that we are always on a journey.
we keep moving on.
i am comforted by the fact that this stands for something so important. and at times, sometimes months on end, i will wear it as a symbol of the season i am in. when I wear it now, my son loves to play with it and spin it around in his hands, reminding me that he is on his own one. i am comforted by that.
comfort to me is a lot of things really.
my husband, son and i altogether.
my family around me, accepting me wholeheartedly.
and, so many integral loved ones too. 
bagels with cream cheese and jam.
lying on mum’s couch.
and so many other things too.

but as I look down at what hangs around my neck something stands out to me. 

a promise that gives me comfort during all the highs and lows right now and in the future – whether up in the mountain tops or stumbling through the darkest valleys.
i am not complete.
i am a work in progress.
how I am today is not as far as I get.
 there are many new hinds places and many more valleys.

i am so grateful for that. the fact that i am unfinished, still being molded, not having to resolve. 

this is not the end but that i am complete in Him.

thank goodness!

What gives you comfort?

Tune my heart

Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;
Streams of mercy, never ceasing,
Call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
Sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount, I’m fixed upon it,
Mount of Thy redeeming love.
Rotating the pegs
to stretch or relieve the string
 to produce the acceptable pitch

Turning the dial to adjust 
the frequency
to the required signal
Balancing each part
in order for the machine
to run smoothly and efficiently

Altering attitudes and actions
to adjust to a 
new purpose or situation


  Tune my heart oh God, 
remind me of the 
hidden gems 
that are hidden in one’s heart.
Fill me with Love;
brimming joy
 that freely flows to others. 
Gift me with words 
to lift up 
and not pull down.
Let me be a river 
of your grace.

Rotating, Turning,
Balancing, Altering.

Tune my heart.

Tune my heart

Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;
Streams of mercy, never ceasing,
Call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
Sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount, I’m fixed upon it,
Mount of Thy redeeming love.
Rotating the pegs
to stretch or relieve the string
 to produce the acceptable pitch

Turning the dial to adjust 
the frequency
to the required signal
Balancing each part
in order for the machine
to run smoothly and efficiently

Altering attitudes and actions
to adjust to a 
new purpose or situation


  Tune my heart oh God, 
remind me of the 
hidden gems 
that are hidden in one’s heart.
Fill me with Love;
brimming joy
 that freely flows to others. 
Gift me with words 
to lift up 
and not pull down.
Let me be a river 
of your grace.

Rotating, Turning,
Balancing, Altering.

Tune my heart.

In all circumstances

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus
1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18

Thankfulness. Thankful in every situation. I have been challenged to re-establish my attitude with a heart set on being grateful and it’s funny how when you do this, situations come that will stretch that desired focus to it’s limit.


This here is an image of peek hour traffic in Seoul, of which the greater city area is the second largest metropolitan area in the world; only second to Tokyo.

On Thursday I was traveling into Seoul to celebrate a close friend’s birthday. Everything was going well, I wasn’t late and the air conditioning was pleasant as I made my way along one of the main highways. Towards the end I noticed the clutch was not springing back as it normally would and in the end I had to take off my sandal and grip it with my toes to pull it back out! Not worrying too much about that I reached the center of the city and that is when it happened. I could not get the car out of gear… Horns soon were blaring their disgust as I was caught in peak hour traffic and was stuck. I quickly put on my hazard lights (which pretty much means you can do anything in your car here!) and found a space behind an island in the middle of a road – three lanes on either side, whizzing past me with noone noticing or stopping. I sat there stunned.

A quick message to my husband via FB showed that he was busy and was not going to respond immediately and I chose not to worry my friends because that would spoil their dinner so I ended up in a very random chat with my mum all the way in New Zealand! Hubby finally responded and gave me the insurance number and policy I needed and that is where the situation went down hill further. After three attempts to contact our insurance I realized that the speaker on my phone was also not working! Yikes, what to do – oh yeah did I remind you that it was 31C as well?

I had about an hour’s wait and I could have been worked up and crying (which can often be my default setting when in stressful situations) but I found myself thankful. Remembering my effort to give thanks in all situations. I was thankful that my son was not with me (and I was very close to taking him with me), thankful for friends who are a huge support and a husband who was cool and calm and checking on me as best he could.

In the end my friends and Hubby contacted the insurance for me and the tow truck driver came to my rescue in record time! There were a few things lost in translation but I kept my cool. I drove back in the tow truck and laughed the whole way. What more could I do?

Life is like a mirror: frown at it and it frowns back at you; smile, and it smiles too. 
— Herbet Samual
I am so glad I smiled in that situation because it would have been so much harder if I hadn’t had set that as my response.

**Thankfulness opens the door to His presence. A grateful attitude is one effective way of opening the door and letting Him come closer to your situation.

**Thankfulness is built on a substructure of trust. When thankful words stick in your throat (don’t come out easily), it is time to check up on your foundation of trust. 

**When thankfulness 
flows freely from your heart and lips, let your gratitude draw you closer again to Him.


**Thankfulness will also cushion the impact of trials when they come. Giving thanks regularly awakens our awareness to a multitude of blessings.

This beautiful lady has a story, with a past that none of us would want to repeat. Her wisdom sinks deep down deep in me.

I hope you are encouraged by her message.
Boy am I thankful for that and you!

In all circumstances

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus
1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18

Thankfulness. Thankful in every situation. I have been challenged to re-establish my attitude with a heart set on being grateful and it’s funny how when you do this, situations come that will stretch that desired focus to it’s limit.


This here is an image of peek hour traffic in Seoul, of which the greater city area is the second largest metropolitan area in the world; only second to Tokyo.

On Thursday I was traveling into Seoul to celebrate a close friend’s birthday. Everything was going well, I wasn’t late and the air conditioning was pleasant as I made my way along one of the main highways. Towards the end I noticed the clutch was not springing back as it normally would and in the end I had to take off my sandal and grip it with my toes to pull it back out! Not worrying too much about that I reached the center of the city and that is when it happened. I could not get the car out of gear… Horns soon were blaring their disgust as I was caught in peak hour traffic and was stuck. I quickly put on my hazard lights (which pretty much means you can do anything in your car here!) and found a space behind an island in the middle of a road – three lanes on either side, whizzing past me with noone noticing or stopping. I sat there stunned.

A quick message to my husband via FB showed that he was busy and was not going to respond immediately and I chose not to worry my friends because that would spoil their dinner so I ended up in a very random chat with my mum all the way in New Zealand! Hubby finally responded and gave me the insurance number and policy I needed and that is where the situation went down hill further. After three attempts to contact our insurance I realized that the speaker on my phone was also not working! Yikes, what to do – oh yeah did I remind you that it was 31C as well?

I had about an hour’s wait and I could have been worked up and crying (which can often be my default setting when in stressful situations) but I found myself thankful. Remembering my effort to give thanks in all situations. I was thankful that my son was not with me (and I was very close to taking him with me), thankful for friends who are a huge support and a husband who was cool and calm and checking on me as best he could.

In the end my friends and Hubby contacted the insurance for me and the tow truck driver came to my rescue in record time! There were a few things lost in translation but I kept my cool. I drove back in the tow truck and laughed the whole way. What more could I do?

Life is like a mirror: frown at it and it frowns back at you; smile, and it smiles too. 
— Herbet Samual
I am so glad I smiled in that situation because it would have been so much harder if I hadn’t had set that as my response.

**Thankfulness opens the door to His presence. A grateful attitude is one effective way of opening the door and letting Him come closer to your situation.

**Thankfulness is built on a substructure of trust. When thankful words stick in your throat (don’t come out easily), it is time to check up on your foundation of trust. 

**When thankfulness 
flows freely from your heart and lips, let your gratitude draw you closer again to Him.


**Thankfulness will also cushion the impact of trials when they come. Giving thanks regularly awakens our awareness to a multitude of blessings.

This beautiful lady has a story, with a past that none of us would want to repeat. Her wisdom sinks deep down deep in me.

I hope you are encouraged by her message.
Boy am I thankful for that and you!

We are FAMILY

I don’t know anyone who wouldn’t say that their family isn’t really important to them. Family are those that deeply know you, accept you, can speak into you like nobody else can and ultimately want the best for you. Family is wherever home is.
I have been reflecting on this recently; we are now a new family unit. It is no longer just Hubby and I. We have this new layer around us and we know that our son is of utmost importance. 
There have been many highs and a few little lows a long this journey so far.
 At the moment someone very close in my family is not apart of this unit. They have chosen to remove themselves from my life. They have never contacted after the birth of my son or have been interested in knowing much about our new lives through this. 
There is definitely grief that comes with the loss of a close family member who has made decisions to not be a part of your life. Not be in memories that are being made right now. Emotions can tumble and fall.

I am not really sure what I am saying here but for me it is a way of processing this and getting my thoughts out. I have many thoughts or questions that end up at a dead end; a one-sided conversation.

Weeding through information I do know, I can stand on some things that are solid. I do know so far, that this is a process and there are days where the loss feels so great. There are days when my focus is to decipher and understand something that ultimately cannot be understood. I could wallow, and let it cloud the joys of parenthood… But I choose to take time to place this into God’s capable hands, to breathe heart-whispered prayers onto this situation and release it to Him. 

I have realized too that this is not just done once. 

It is a walk, an onion of many layers, of situation triggers, of forgiveness and mercy. And receiving the amazing love of the Father who is there for me always when my earthly one is not.

I also have a strong feeling that this will be used to encourage, support or speak into some one in the future. To bring healing into someone’s life. I am not there yet myself but I offer that in hope that I will be one day.

Our family is growing, the new generation has come (with my brother’s baby due in a week!) and we are excited for the future; for our family’s future.

And healing along the way.