in my mother’s eyes

i heard a song today, a song my friend shared for mothers everywhere and it moved me to tears… such a beautiful song that captures how i feel about my mum…

so many moments, phone calls of encouragement, coming to my music concerts growing up, reminding me of who i was when i really had lost it, pointing out the important things, building my faith, thinking through tricky scenarios, prayer walks along the beach, our memorable trip to taranaki and that goat, giving me away to be married… so many countless moments.

we were a team, when i needed her most she has always spoken into my life and given me reassurance, sometimes thinking i am crazy but giving me confidence any way.

like the song says her hope she gives to me.

please listen, it’s a goodie…


i love you with all my heart mum.

mother’s day | 2015

motherhood defines you. if you are a mother, you hold on to that moment {and the moments} that changed your identity and your destiny so close because suddenly your heart is moving and living outside of you. it’s an incredibly humbling and raw journey to be on.

mum’s you rock!




today was a beauty day of sleep ins, snuggles with my boys and then breakfast. our church celebrated mother’s day in such a honouring and fun way. we then had a picnic by the river and fed the ducks. you can see isaiah’s confidence grow through the pictures, such an example of my little boy’s character. i am so incredibly proud of who he is becoming.

hubby spoiled me with gifts and doing special jobs to make me relax and refresh. thank you so much for a great day today.

some days i question whether i can actually do it! but i’ve realised that’s an aspect of the journey, always wanting to do your best and sometimes letting your best be enough… it’s the rawness all mother’s will understand.

love to the mama’s; the strong ones, the needy ones, the silent ones, the grieving, and waiting-to-be mamas, the mamas who choose to play that part for others, to the never-forgotten mamas, the mamas we can take for granted. you rock!

:: holding on to the good ::

easter 2015

our family gathered in a local park to celebrate easter and spend time together. the cousins running freely, sharing hugs and cheeky laughs. it was a memorable time…

family together is all i wanted this weekend. these photos share moments of love. it’s said by many that children spell love T-I-M-E and when we’re spread out and busy busy, these moments matter and i am thankful and grateful for this time together.

this easter egg hunt was isaiah’s first and so entertaining! the uncles hid the rewards through a little forest of mair pack {where we had his first birthday!} and with little buckets they gathered their eggs.

it certainly feels like an endless summer and long may it last! what these photos do not capture is special times in ruakaka with the hubbard family and dinners and visiting with friends. the weekend was a wonderful time to remember what i’m most grateful for. 

including time with my family, for me, easter is about atonement and sacrificial love. an only son who gave his life because God so loved the world. the greatest gift for ever and ever.

how was your easter?!
:: holding on to the good ::

a {farm park} birthday party

isaiah is an animal lover at heart and i couldn’t think of any place better than to visit animals in a quiet location with our family to celebrate with.
serendipity farm park in whangarei, is a tranquil setting for a day trip, escape from the urban hustle or in our case, a 2nd birthday party! 
the day started off clear (as rain was predicted!) and so we prepared the food, packed raincoats and rain boots and traveled a short distance from the centre of town to a whau valley…


loaded with food bags and watching out for birds underfoot we explored the different animals and took as much time or moved on as quickly as needed.

what was wonderful about this place is you can go at your own pace and the staff are friendly and approachable. forgetting a lighter to light the candles of a birthday cake, no problem for them to help out!

 the walkways are well kept tidy, with an array of animals to visit.

what was also great was that we could bring our own party food and set up under the balcony. also ordering coffee and snacks for later on at the nosebag cafe.

it was so wonderful to have the cousins together; having fun interacting with the animals and unwrapping special gifts.

 you can tell what isaiah was into straight away!

so we have a two year old! 

and great memories of our time together celebrating in a unique setting. 
** this is not a sponsored post, all thoughts and words are my own! we just loved the place so wanted to share about it. 
:: holding on to the good ::

a {farm park} birthday party

isaiah is an animal lover at heart and i couldn’t think of any place better than to visit animals in a quiet location with our family to celebrate with.
serendipity farm park in whangarei, is a tranquil setting for a day trip, escape from the urban hustle or in our case, a 2nd birthday party! 
the day started off clear (as rain was predicted!) and so we prepared the food, packed raincoats and rain boots and traveled a short distance from the centre of town to a whau valley…


loaded with food bags and watching out for birds underfoot we explored the different animals and took as much time or moved on as quickly as needed.

what was wonderful about this place is you can go at your own pace and the staff are friendly and approachable. forgetting a lighter to light the candles of a birthday cake, no problem for them to help out!

 the walkways are well kept tidy, with an array of animals to visit.

what was also great was that we could bring our own party food and set up under the balcony. also ordering coffee and snacks for later on at the nosebag cafe.

it was so wonderful to have the cousins together; having fun interacting with the animals and unwrapping special gifts.

 you can tell what isaiah was into straight away!

so we have a two year old! 

and great memories of our time together celebrating in a unique setting. 
** this is not a sponsored post, all thoughts and words are my own! we just loved the place so wanted to share about it. 
:: holding on to the good ::

two years!

happy birthday to our boy!
your birthday this year reminded me very much of the day you were born {grey and drizzly} – i kept thinking about that day and when each significant event happened… it was a day that forever changed your daddy and i.

we visited your tree yesterday, a puriri that is growing strong and flourishing – just like you are!

we call you ‘our cheeky’ and ‘iyah’, you are a major animal lover and enjoy dancing as much as you can. you are starting to find things funny and make your own jokes!

you have many of the animal noises and love to point out ‘moo cows’ and ‘maas’ as we travel along the windy roads of our neighbourhood.

you know your granddad, nana, meema and extended family really well now and get excited when we go to visit Laynee {isaiah’s homebased carer}.

you enjoy being outside a lot and take time to play with tarla {wawaa}, finding the {cheechee’s} birds, you love watching the trucks roll passed our house and watching the wiggles and the mother goose club on the ipad. you are whizz on that you know, you even teach granddad how to use it!

you have become more independent and enjoy playing farms in your room and finding your duckies and hiding them in places for mama to find. you love morning snuggles in bed and a {naanaa} to start the day.
you are starting to say lots of words and sing along to your favourite songs. your deep hearty laugh cheers up the lowest days and you always

we love you, isaiah and are so proud of where you are today and the little person you are developing into!

bring on the terrific twos!

:: holding on to the good:

two years!

happy birthday to our boy!
your birthday this year reminded me very much of the day you were born {grey and drizzly} – i kept thinking about that day and when each significant event happened… it was a day that forever changed your daddy and i.

we visited your tree yesterday, a puriri that is growing strong and flourishing – just like you are!

we call you ‘our cheeky’ and ‘iyah’, you are a major animal lover and enjoy dancing as much as you can. you are starting to find things funny and make your own jokes!

you have many of the animal noises and love to point out ‘moo cows’ and ‘maas’ as we travel along the windy roads of our neighbourhood.

you know your granddad, nana, meema and extended family really well now and get excited when we go to visit Laynee {isaiah’s homebased carer}.

you enjoy being outside a lot and take time to play with tarla {wawaa}, finding the {cheechee’s} birds, you love watching the trucks roll passed our house and watching the wiggles and the mother goose club on the ipad. you are whizz on that you know, you even teach granddad how to use it!

you have become more independent and enjoy playing farms in your room and finding your duckies and hiding them in places for mama to find. you love morning snuggles in bed and a {naanaa} to start the day.
you are starting to say lots of words and sing along to your favourite songs. your deep hearty laugh cheers up the lowest days and you always

we love you, isaiah and are so proud of where you are today and the little person you are developing into!

bring on the terrific twos!

:: holding on to the good:

Whangarei is 50

in 1964, whangarei, nz became a {city} of more than 20,000 residents. it was a great time for the region and in that year over 60 local events commemorated this achievement. to mark this 50th jubilee a parade and after party was organised on saturday. and what a fantastic opportunity to bring some local pride and celebrate the uniqueness of who we are!

the crowds was what struck me first. there were so many people dressed in the 1960s theme, clapping and cheering and bringing a positive and celebratory atmosphere.

it was a celebration of who we are and what stood out to me was the diversity that was displayed…

anticipating the next float

i love how different groups were represented as one community; celebrating our history. there were floats from the filipino, fijin, tongan, samoan communities, highland bands, sports clubs, churches – over 70 floats were registered!

young and older, families and adopted kiwis gathered together and having fun. the rain stayed away and it felt like nobody wanted to go home. we enjoyed some deliciously homemade fairs from the market for lunch and watched our kids dance to rock n roll. my favourite parts were bumping into long lost friends in the crowds, when you embrace that special person and soak up the {knowingness} of times gone by – it was pretty great.

thanks whangarei – love it here!

:: holding onto the good ::

Whangarei is 50

in 1964, whangarei, nz became a {city} of more than 20,000 residents. it was a great time for the region and in that year over 60 local events commemorated this achievement. to mark this 50th jubilee a parade and after party was organised on saturday. and what a fantastic opportunity to bring some local pride and celebrate the uniqueness of who we are!

the crowds was what struck me first. there were so many people dressed in the 1960s theme, clapping and cheering and bringing a positive and celebratory atmosphere.

it was a celebration of who we are and what stood out to me was the diversity that was displayed…

anticipating the next float

i love how different groups were represented as one community; celebrating our history. there were floats from the filipino, fijin, tongan, samoan communities, highland bands, sports clubs, churches – over 70 floats were registered!

young and older, families and adopted kiwis gathered together and having fun. the rain stayed away and it felt like nobody wanted to go home. we enjoyed some deliciously homemade fairs from the market for lunch and watched our kids dance to rock n roll. my favourite parts were bumping into long lost friends in the crowds, when you embrace that special person and soak up the {knowingness} of times gone by – it was pretty great.

thanks whangarei – love it here!

:: holding onto the good ::

father’s day | 2014

it was a stunning day, with puffy clouds hovering in a sea of blue. an amazing respite from the unrelenting rain we have experienced since being back.

we started with celebrating hubby, with rough and tumble on the bed… Pancakes and presents and a fun ‘the present or the bag’ rendition, making opening presents a little more interesting. i owe hubby a forty minute massage because of it!

in the afternoon we ventured to granddad and nana’s for some family time, and someone spent lots of time following granddad around.

it was football time on the grass with the big cousins joining in, enjoying the surrounds and wide open spaces.

father’s day isn’t the easiest day for me, as my dad is not in my life, so it is an opportunity to appreciate all the more my hubby, father-in-law and brothers. I LOVE YOU ALL.