in my mother’s eyes

i heard a song today, a song my friend shared for mothers everywhere and it moved me to tears… such a beautiful song that captures how i feel about my mum…

so many moments, phone calls of encouragement, coming to my music concerts growing up, reminding me of who i was when i really had lost it, pointing out the important things, building my faith, thinking through tricky scenarios, prayer walks along the beach, our memorable trip to taranaki and that goat, giving me away to be married… so many countless moments.

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my one word 2016

each new year i adopt a word that i want to encompass for the up coming year. it’s a word that seems to gravitate towards my thought life and one that i look to develop through my attitude, actions and faith journey…


vb – thrives, thriving, thrived, throve, thrived or thriven
1. to grow strongly and vigorously
2. to do well; prosper

i feel like my goal is to bring life into the situations i face. to see the positive and aim to sew seeds of hope and support to loving life in the now. it’s building on what took place last year, focusing on being grateful and rising up from some dark places.

ones from previous years:

‘move from a lower position to a higher one; come or go up’
‘to return to consciousness or life : become active or flourishing again’
‘to invest with power, to equip or supply with an ability; enable’

do you have a chosen word or theme for the year ahead? i’d love to hear your goals, dreams or words  for this year… 
:: holding on to the good ::

christmas 2015

sharing belated memories of our christmas time together, the lead up and the couple of days of celebration was so fun with a three year old who understood all about father christmas and presents!

it was a memorable christmas celebration with time at the hubbards and a gathering of my family at our abode on boxing day.

the cousins together, isaiah calling jed ‘eddy’ and my sister friend melissa visiting from korea were a few great things thrown into the mix!

we loved hosting and sharing our favourite spot, enjoying our bbq on the grass (which will soon be an extended deck area) and enjoying the breeze under our big tree.

lots of fun memories to hold of our first christmas celebrations in kerikeri.

:: holding on to the good :: 

52/52 the finale

so here is the last instalment of this project. i’m going to have a break next year and pick it up 2017… thanks for joining in along the way!

a portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015.

isaiah: enjoying shirley hughes’ story collection with ma, engrossed in the story.
shot on a canon 450d with tamron 18-200mm lens

:: holding on to the good :: 

we have a 3 boy!

we adventured to kawakawa for isaiah’s third birthday celebration, riding the train and having a celebration at the park…

our boy is cheeky, fun and so interactive right now, he loved being on the train and let’s us know he is three now! he had his ‘jump off’ from his daycare on thursday last week which means he will move onto the 3-5 year old place within the same care provider, this will start in late january.

it’s awesome to see his character really take shape and realise he is so capable in lots of ways. we can have our challenges too and are learning to set strong boundaries and good routines. being consist is the key!

we love you, isaiah kenneth. you make our days so much brighter!

:: holding on to the good :: 

50 and 51/52

lots of celebrations these last two weeks. especially for isaiah who turned 3 (check out my next post about that). one more week and this challenge is complete!

a portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015.
isaiah: lots of celebrations for your big day, standing with your tree and blowing the candle out with your best bud. 
shot on a canon 450d with tamron 18-200mm lens
:: holding on to the good :: 

48 and 49/52

i can see the light at the end of this year long project. looking at the photos now, i see a strong, inquisitive boy.. not long until the big 3!

a portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015.
isaiah: exploring our surrounds and getting festive when talking with meema on the phone. 
shot on a canon 450d with tamron 18-200mm lens and my iPad
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it’s a busy time of year and we make sure we share the downtime together. isaiah has had a haircut this weekend and he looks like a boy who is nearly three. yes, i remind myself this is happening in less than one month…

a portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015.
isaiah: offering dadda some of his apple; you are learning to share and love to do this my boy. 
shot on my iPad and a canon 450d with tamron 18-200mm lens

:: holding on to the good :: 

by any other name

so i had a particularly awful start to this week. things just seemed to go from bad to worse. i want to share what happened at the end and what it has taught me…

i felt like i was set up to fail,  having high expectations to just be let down. and when i went to get into the car at the end of the day and i had left the lights on all day, that was just the last straw. my first reaction to times like this is to withdraw, shutdown, internalise.  i just want to escape.

however, this time was different.

after taking half an hour to calm down i decided to press the reset button. i picked up isaiah, put on my walking shoes and took him and our dog for a big walk, chatting and laughing and looking for ducks. we went on a ‘bear hunt’ and found our own ‘cave’.

as we neared our fence line i noticed pink among the green of our overgrown garden, roses had started to bloom and i hadn’t even noticed them before. that really spoke to me, my middle name is rose and it was a quite reminder that there is always something to be thankful for…

cutting some stems off and putting them on the table, i kept them in view as i cooked a healthy dinner and even set the table. a simple, special reminder of goodness among the thorns.

after all the stress and feelings of failure, my response was very different to a year ago… and for that i am even more grateful.

:: holding on to the good ::